God I can't wait to leave NDSU.  Although I'll miss my friends that I've made and people who I see on a regular basis, i'll hopefully be making a good decision.  I really do miss my boyfriend, butI miss people here when I go home.  I just wish I could have the best of both worlds. ?WHY all these complications?  HELP I don't even know know if what I'm doing is right anymore, I'm confused, about school, friends, realationships......everything.

If anyone has advice, please let me knoe.  I want to settle down, but then again I want someone to hold me, but also I wan tto have fun, be free and single, but at the smane time be with someone.  If you know what I mean, I know I'm confuseing, but that's me for you.

Yeah so ok I know it's been a while sice I wrote here.  Guess I've been busy and haven't really cared about much for a while.  I guess that's what happens when you are somewhere where you just don't want to be.  Its starts to affect everything including your attitude.  TOTALLY.  I've really been letting my school work slip, but it hasn't helped that I've been sick and that my back went out!!

So anyways.... I actually have really good news.  I mad a decison all by my self that will effect my life in a hge way.  I am going to move home after this semester.  I'm so glad.  I hate it here in the dorms they treat you like shit and they try to control you, plus when your roommate sucks and is a huge snitch... grow up already!!!  SO yeah no more school, no more bullshit.  Just my life to control and able to work and earn lots of money, well ok so I'm going to go back to school somtime, maybe.  Maybe it's just not for me or what I want to do, so everyone who doesn't like it can just fuck off.   I love it I make my own decisions and face the consequences.....  I can't wait to leave NDSU!!!! I HATE IT...................... HOME HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!

MY CHRISTMAS WISH LIST!!!!!!!!1

1. Cd player for my car

2. White turtleneck sweater

3. Whit hooded sweatshit

4. Jeans- Silver or Express

5. A new coat

6. Sweaters

There will be more later, this is just the begining of my list.

Hey everyone.  I'm at home right now.  I love it here, and I never want to go back to FARGO!!  I miss everything here, the people, my friends, the partys, knowing where I'm going.  anyways I just got Up and I think I'm gonna go and do somthing fun.  Tell you all about it later.

bye bye